ACCESS DENIED
Once upon a night you happened upon me.
Along you came,
oozing charm and skills.
Infiltrating barriers built over time
with vows of love everlasting.
Expertly permeating walls,
strong, stable and erect.
This heart you won,
then trampled.
Now, I'm just a bloody wreck.
Along you came,
oozing charm and skills.
Infiltrating barriers built over time
with vows of love everlasting.
Expertly permeating walls,
strong, stable and erect.
This heart you won,
then trampled.
Now, I'm just a bloody wreck.
TeAnne © July 12.1997
1. BEAUTIFUL STRANGER 17 poems
Hypnotising brown iris' and
smiling sensuous lips,
stretched across white even teeth.
Contrast against sun bronzed skin. The conversing of special words
in ears long needed.
Cool stimulating hands,
on warm flesh, forbidden.
Gentle embraces and shared
tender kisses of heart pounding lust.
A gentleman lover of midnight -
Hour of delight.
Daylight brings no regrets
nor utterance of love.
Absent forever but never forget.
My Beautiful Stranger.
TeAnne. Oct. 1. 1999
2. Un-relenting Lust
I wish I could see him again.
I can't help the feeling that I let him slip away.
Something more could have been said
to concrete our lust before good-bye.
My heart is on a constant search
scanning the faces in a crowd.
My ears are honed for his name, his voice.
His manly scent, a nasal memory.
Wandering aimlessly through my dreams of torment
knowing now, that he is lost to me forever.
The seductiveness of the night still lingers.
Astral travel to his sheets of dreams,
where I demand he remembers me.
TeAnne. © Oct 23.1999
3. REMEMBERED Then Forgotten.
My beautiful stranger thinks he's smart
Toyed and tangled with my heart.
He rang me up on Tuesday night
I thanked the gods for shining bright.
Toyed and tangled with my heart.
He rang me up on Tuesday night
I thanked the gods for shining bright.
Coffee planned and casual chat
He didn't show, I rang him back.
A drink at seven, "I'll pick you up"
What a fool I was, a sad eyed pup.
He didn't show, I rang him back.
A drink at seven, "I'll pick you up"
What a fool I was, a sad eyed pup.
Stood me up, twice today
What prank has he in play?
Playing games I won't abide
He did his dash, when he lied.
What prank has he in play?
Playing games I won't abide
He did his dash, when he lied.
Types like him, can go to hell
Curling back, safe inside my shell .
I can live without sugar and spice
And the tingles that felt quite nice.
Curling back, safe inside my shell .
I can live without sugar and spice
And the tingles that felt quite nice.
I am deaf to his name and his voice
Survival without him that is my choice.
Astral travel to his sheets?
I'll leave my venom, at his feet.
Survival without him that is my choice.
Astral travel to his sheets?
I'll leave my venom, at his feet.
TeAnne © Oct 29. 1999
We eventually met up and had a great time. :))
4. DESIRE and CONTROL
TeAnne. © Nov. 1999An encore of tingles
from hands that caressed.
The pleasure he brought
embraces my mind.
The secret of him
and my wanton lust.
These cravings forsake.
Will I be cloaked in longing…
for he, the stranger no more?
Desire cast aside
and memory abate.
I must give him up…
For true love from one
who is destined.
5. MY NEEDS IGNORED.My thoughts…. My wishes….Laid aside for one who claims 'true love' .I dream, of another's arms, softly...Gently enfolding…I desire…His kisses…His sensuous lips on mine.
My heart is breaking…But does my 'true love' care?Reluctantly.I stand at his side…My mind...on my sacrificed lover… He,who beckons in my dreams.Is there really a winner here?
TeAnne. © Nov.15. 1999
I don't exist anymore
Erased from his memory.
His phone won't ring
And his house has no number.
I told myself I was not in love,
Then why is my heart so heavy?
Brown eyes flash in my mind
Night, day, when I am not thinking!
I only returned the passion,
That I was receiving.
He said, I scared him.
Was this his excuse to ignore me?
He called me 'sweetheart' and kissed my hands.
Told me how sensual I was,
Then vanished from my life.
Seems he never cared at all.
I told myself…
I was NOT in love.
He absorbed himself into my heart.
I told myself…
It felt so right.
He said the right words
I told myself…
DON'T believe him.
His exciting brown eyes permeate my dreams.
I tell myself…
They will evaporate in time.
TeAnne. © DEC 15. 1999
To The Beautiful Stranger who is ugly on the inside.
I was overwhelmed by your charm.
You listened to what I had to say
and remembered our conversations.
You made me laugh and feel alive.
In a room full of people
You made me feel I was the only one.
Songs play on the radio
their words express my thoughts.
Why are they always the ones we danced to?
The phone rings and I pray it's you.
But mostly no-one is there.
Blinded by your gentlemanly ways
I refused to heed the warnings
from ones who could see.
I made you larger than life.
Did I speculate too much?
I go from day to day wondering, what went wrong.
I don't understand your need to hurt me.
Why did you not, remain a one night stand?
TeAnne Dec. 20. 1999
8. I will Laugh Last
- I didn't know that I loved you.Stayed in denial, I didn't know I fell.
One day I will look upon my memories
and laugh, at how gullible I was to let a Romeo
like you into my heart, my soul.
You acted as though you liked me.
Was it all just an act, after all?
You played your part flawlessly.
Winning! At my expense… Big man!
Did you find another, better than I?
Was I not good enough. Or too good?
Building my barrier stronger.
Even Superman won't penetrate.
Your piercing brown eyes will not pervade!
I'll laugh at how blinded I was, to the person you are.
I thought you were ideality.
Showing your true colours has revealed…
'You will end up a lonely old man'.
And I will laugh as Karma has its day.
TeAnne. © Dec 26. 1999
The not so beautiful Stranger
- Well, I'm sure in your mind you thinkyou are God's gift to all females.
Your beautiful brown Labrador eyes
can melt the coldest of hearts.
With flashing Dennis Quade smile
sends tingles up a spine.
The personality of Don Juan
who conquerors all hearts.
Alas, all is lost on you!
For I have found...
The most charming and handsomest of men
are lacking the essentials
in the department of manhood!
TeAnne. © Dec 28. 1999
10. While You Slept
Did you feel me last night? I was there,
We laid side by side, you thought you were dreaming…
But it was I, tracing my fingertips across your manly chest.
We whispered sentiments we'd mouthed before.
Did you feel my breath upon your ear?
You sighed and moaned my name
I was surprised that you remembered it.
I was there, with you between your sheets.
I held you tight…while our spiritual selves melded.
I teased and tantalised your body
until you reached the point of no return…
Then I left! … …
TeAnne Dec.29.1999
11. Attributes
His smile was radiant and
His eyes shone like the moon.
His kisses were succulent and
He hugged firmly but tenderly.
His hands were gentle but strong.
His words were sweet and caring.
He made love with affection.
The only thing missing
was the equipment to satisfy.
TeAnne © Dec 29. 1999
12. Strangers and Lovers
The 'Beautiful Stranger' should be thanked, I guess!
For he knows not, that his antics made me stronger.
He, being the inspiration of my artistic creations, and
the awakener of love and desire in a previous lover!
I thought I had found the perfect partner, I guess!
Seems though, he was not strong enough to fall.
Now, out of sight, out of mind I return to life,
resigned to the knowledge that, he will never call.
Truth in the adage, 'better the devil you know', I guess!
Something that was lacking in the 'stranger', honesty!
I know, I was possessed by his charms and facial traits
I see now what is in front of me, one with sincerity.
I feel sorry for the stranger, he is the loser, I guess!
He misses out on the best of me. The part he created.
But, I must thank Barry for showing me who I can be.
Engaged to Daryl again and to his family, I'll be related!
TeAnne © Dec 30. 1999
13. Rose and Thorn
Thorn in my side, to
him I bestowed a red rose.
The prick pierced my heart.
TeAnne © Jan 2. 2000
14. It's Thanks to You
Pain in my life has been much
With this, that and such and such
There and back so many times
Who would trade their life, for mine?
This new year will bring happy things
Its just begun, on my finger, a ring
You're out of my life, obviously gone
I dance now in the arms of an old song.
TeAnne. © Jan 2. 2000
15. His Big Mistake
It is his time to worry
He knows his name is mud
In his heart, he's sorry
but still, he's just a dud.
He will not take the time to say
'I made a mistake, hurting you'
Yet, I know will come the day
when he's thought it all through.
Three little words he'll wished he had spoken
What goes around always comes back
'I am sorry' would not his pride have broken
Manners and morality is what he lacked.
TeAnne © Jan 22.2000
16. Domination
I fell in love...
upon a starlit night.
Glistening highlights from moonbeams,
shone from heaven in your eyes.
From the corner of my eye,
Espy....
movement.
Tiptoeing across nature's skin
Your spirit enveloped and pushed aside
Uncertainties and self-doubt.
Like the Forest,
you overgrew me with yourself
This could not be love!
I felt smothered.
© 21 May 2000
17. I Often Wonder
I often reflect on…'What's his name'?
Viewing his photos closely,
provokes the question of
'Why was I so mesmerised'?
I do remember though, the fluttering of heart,
the quickening of pulse, when our eyes locked
on that fateful night.
And 'The kiss' ohhhhhhhhhhhh!
Whirling into feral sin, five days after.
'What is he doing now'? I think…
Does he share the same regrets?
Or does his differ?
While I tried to hang on
He let go.
I know I am invisible now
But who the hell made him,
lord and master of all my thoughts?.
TeAnne © May 23. 2000
COMFORT
Come! Hold my hand of peace
and walk this freedom road
Watch the ecliptic moons
and see the auras glow
No! don't run from shadows
for I am there for you
We'll run thru' the meadows
in days of gold's and blue.
TeAnne © 22/2/99
BECAUSE OF YOU
Because of you
I have a purpose
Because of you
I dream
Because of you
My life is restored
Because of you
I have regained strength
Because of you
I am complete
Because of you
I am inspired
Because of you
I take pride in all I do
Because of you
I am euphoric
Because of you
I am possessed
Because of you,
enchanter I am able to love again.
TeAnne...19 May. 1997 ©
OUR FIRE
Come unto me oh
my masterful one
Shower upon me
my hearts great desires
Cuddle up close now
Oh fill me with love
Let the whole world see
within us, our fires.
TeAnne © 18 Feb 1999
CREATING NEW LOVE
Come give me love
while spirits glide this ne’er land
and orange embers glow
Embrace this body of humanly flesh
while tree limbs’ waver in gentle breezes
and oceans ebb and flow
Kiss soft lips of cherry red
while rain sprinkles hillsides green
and passions’ flower turns pink
Make love with tenderness
while volcano’s lava erupts
and in deserts the sun burns hot.All rights reserved. TeAnne 1997,1998,1999 ©
PHANTOM LOVER OF THE NIGHT
How you make me want you more
phantom lover of the night.
Creeping in through my window
taking me, holding me tight.
I sense your arms around me
even though I’m still asleep.
Your warm body so soothing
while from me, my blood you seek.
Gentle are your fingertips
as they trace around my neck
gulping your life’s resourses
with a nibble, not a peck.
TeAnne © 2/2/1999
CUSTOM MADE.
I scent you with my perfume
I am your body soap!
I am warmth against your naked skin
I am your underwear!
You’re soul is enclosed within me
I am your sock!
I hug you gently around your chest
I am your shirt!
Complementing you elegantly
I am your suit!
Hugging you around the neck
I am your tie.
I am all over you my love and
You wear me well!
TeAnne © 2/2/1999
RIGHT OR WRONG
Hey there! I know you, have
We not talked before?
You’re on everyone’s mind.
You sleaze in once in awhile
offer your worth then sleaze out.
You argue profusely with
anyone who’ll listen.
You’re not always right!
Just tell me what it’s like
To be my conscience!
TeAnne © 2/2/1999
CYBER-LOVE© 1997
11. Attributes
His smile was radiant and
His eyes shone like the moon.
His kisses were succulent and
He hugged firmly but tenderly.
His hands were gentle but strong.
His words were sweet and caring.
He made love with affection.
The only thing missing
was the equipment to satisfy.
TeAnne © Dec 29. 1999
12. Strangers and Lovers
The 'Beautiful Stranger' should be thanked, I guess!
For he knows not, that his antics made me stronger.
He, being the inspiration of my artistic creations, and
the awakener of love and desire in a previous lover!
I thought I had found the perfect partner, I guess!
Seems though, he was not strong enough to fall.
Now, out of sight, out of mind I return to life,
resigned to the knowledge that, he will never call.
Truth in the adage, 'better the devil you know', I guess!
Something that was lacking in the 'stranger', honesty!
I know, I was possessed by his charms and facial traits
I see now what is in front of me, one with sincerity.
I feel sorry for the stranger, he is the loser, I guess!
He misses out on the best of me. The part he created.
But, I must thank Barry for showing me who I can be.
Engaged to Daryl again and to his family, I'll be related!
TeAnne © Dec 30. 1999
13. Rose and Thorn
Thorn in my side, to
him I bestowed a red rose.
The prick pierced my heart.
TeAnne © Jan 2. 2000
14. It's Thanks to You
Pain in my life has been much
With this, that and such and such
There and back so many times
Who would trade their life, for mine?
This new year will bring happy things
Its just begun, on my finger, a ring
You're out of my life, obviously gone
I dance now in the arms of an old song.
TeAnne. © Jan 2. 2000
15. His Big Mistake
It is his time to worry
He knows his name is mud
In his heart, he's sorry
but still, he's just a dud.
He will not take the time to say
'I made a mistake, hurting you'
Yet, I know will come the day
when he's thought it all through.
Three little words he'll wished he had spoken
What goes around always comes back
'I am sorry' would not his pride have broken
Manners and morality is what he lacked.
TeAnne © Jan 22.2000
16. Domination
I fell in love...
upon a starlit night.
Glistening highlights from moonbeams,
shone from heaven in your eyes.
From the corner of my eye,
Espy....
movement.
Tiptoeing across nature's skin
Your spirit enveloped and pushed aside
Uncertainties and self-doubt.
Like the Forest,
you overgrew me with yourself
This could not be love!
I felt smothered.
© 21 May 2000
17. I Often Wonder
I often reflect on…'What's his name'?
Viewing his photos closely,
provokes the question of
'Why was I so mesmerised'?
I do remember though, the fluttering of heart,
the quickening of pulse, when our eyes locked
on that fateful night.
And 'The kiss' ohhhhhhhhhhhh!
Whirling into feral sin, five days after.
'What is he doing now'? I think…
Does he share the same regrets?
Or does his differ?
While I tried to hang on
He let go.
I know I am invisible now
But who the hell made him,
lord and master of all my thoughts?.
TeAnne © May 23. 2000
BECAUSE OF YOU
Because of you
I have a purpose
Because of you
I dream
Because of you
My life is restored
Because of you
I have regained strength
Because of you
I am complete
Because of you
I am inspired
Because of you
I take pride in all I do
Because of you
I am euphoric
Because of you
I am possessed
Because of you,
enchanter I am able to love again.
TeAnne...19 May. 1997 ©
CREATING NEW LOVE
Come give me love
while spirits glide this ne’er land
and orange embers glow
Embrace this body of humanly flesh
while tree limbs’ waver in gentle breezes
and oceans ebb and flow
Kiss soft lips of cherry red
while rain sprinkles hillsides green
and passions’ flower turns pink
Make love with tenderness
while volcano’s lava erupts
and in deserts the sun burns hot.All rights reserved. TeAnne 1997,1998,1999 ©
PHANTOM LOVER OF THE NIGHT
How you make me want you more
phantom lover of the night.
Creeping in through my window
taking me, holding me tight.
I sense your arms around me
even though I’m still asleep.
Your warm body so soothing
while from me, my blood you seek.
Gentle are your fingertips
as they trace around my neck
gulping your life’s resourses
with a nibble, not a peck.
TeAnne © 2/2/1999
CUSTOM MADE.
I scent you with my perfume
I am your body soap!
I am warmth against your naked skin
I am your underwear!
You’re soul is enclosed within me
I am your sock!
I hug you gently around your chest
I am your shirt!
Complementing you elegantly
I am your suit!
Hugging you around the neck
I am your tie.
I am all over you my love and
You wear me well!
TeAnne © 2/2/1999
RIGHT OR WRONG
Hey there! I know you, have
We not talked before?
You’re on everyone’s mind.
You sleaze in once in awhile
offer your worth then sleaze out.
You argue profusely with
anyone who’ll listen.
You’re not always right!
Just tell me what it’s like
To be my conscience!
TeAnne © 2/2/1999
CYBER-LOVE© 1997
Will I ever hold you, do you really care
Can this dream be ours, this a love so rare
Is this all for real, can we call it love
And many a time you ask "Is this a blessing from above"?
I’m here and you’re there
Will we ever meet, should we ever dare
At night in my eyes are tears
Will they, wash away my fears
of what you might be doing now
I long to be with you, but how?
We look beyond the silver lining
and vow eternal love undying
What my love, are we to do
When all I want and need is you
How do we quell our lust
Do desires just crumble and turn to dust.
We get to know each other well
But without you, life’s a living hell
It all began, end of May
and constantly to each we say
"I am yours and you are mine"
in a little chatting box ON-LINE.
TeAnne © July 17. 1997 Footnote: We did meet and try to love each other!
DARYL
I saw the hurt in your eyes, on the day I left
Again you stand before me, dependable and strong
You, my past love ready, to forgive and forget
Our lives together preparing to re-live.
Non-judgmental, you ignore my imperfections
allow me to be myself, and encourage my strength.
You don’t pass judgment when I’m wrong and
my opinions you nourish.
You don’t rant, yell and ravenor want me as your slave
You stand by me with trust and respect
when I’m down you re-assure
with your arms you protect.
You are my salvation, my perfect mate
I’m glad to be back with you,before it was too late.
TeAnne © Jan 2. 1998 (Footnote:) Daryl and I married on 16th March 2001 after 11 years together. :)
DAYDREAMS
TeAnne © Jan 2. 1998 (Footnote:) Daryl and I married on 16th March 2001 after 11 years together. :)
DAYDREAMS
Daydreams
awake
restless.
Of you visions imagined.
Of lips wrestling mine
and setting free
the taste of insatiable hunger.
Invisible fingersreaching
across time and space.
Tickling forgotten desires.
Reality forsaken
For one more daydream.
TeAnne © April 20. 1997
DEATH TO LIFE
The death of me was swift
once I’d made up my mind
Old, fragmented memories dwindled
gone rapidly and left behind.
Time has come anew
Re-birth imminent, made possible by courage
and determination, grew.
Vanished are indignation's, insipidness and faux pas
Entered, assertiveness, desires for giving
and reasons for living.
Then came you, overriding self doubts and has-beens
Taking up residence within my heart
Sight unseen.
I hope you will stay!TeAnne © July 26. 1997
EFFIGY
TeAnne © April 20. 1997
DEATH TO LIFE
The death of me was swift
once I’d made up my mind
Old, fragmented memories dwindled
gone rapidly and left behind.
Time has come anew
Re-birth imminent, made possible by courage
and determination, grew.
Vanished are indignation's, insipidness and faux pas
Entered, assertiveness, desires for giving
and reasons for living.
Then came you, overriding self doubts and has-beens
Taking up residence within my heart
Sight unseen.
I hope you will stay!TeAnne © July 26. 1997
EFFIGY
Did I conceive you, an Effigy?
to captivate my heart,
dare I ponder this,
lovers you and me?
Stand still my heart,
burning desires aching,
real in my chest.
~
Vast seas, distance shores
separate looming passions
and thumping hearts
as you pledge love for me.
~
Searching in dreams,
dreams half forgotten
half awakened in restless sleep.
And secrets,
illusions kept from open eyes
Dare I too, utter this crux,
conflicting torture, my mind,
stealth, enslaved, oh my effigy.
TeAnne © April 25 1997
Embers Relit
I was getting along just fine
Until you happened along
Stirring up the embers
of an almost extinguished flame.
I'm not sure how this happened,
You know we are only friends!
Then you spoke something, that
tingled my spine erotically.
I must re-build my walls higher
I cannot let you in here.
I do not know you properly
I have never seen your face.
Touching you would be majestic
If you were not so far away
My heart beats are skipping
As I lie here, thinking about you.
© April 10. 1999
© 1999 TeAnne (All rights reserved)
~*~ Far Far Land.~*~
I ventured to a far, far land
to visit with the SensiTyzRR man.
He gave me a silver band,
he said " Life will be Grand"
as he held my hands
he told of plans
and made his demands.
To me all was bland
I took a stand
so now here I am
Back in my own far, far land.
TeAnne....Nov 8 1997
FICTITIOUS
With no name
and no face
fictional,
he comes to me
from somewhere.
Wasting no time,
for lastingness
draws near.
We meet
in dreams,
we who
know in reality
not of each other.
Known only in slumber
who we are.
I read his mind
and he reads me too
we make endless plans
and perfect love.
But ne’er a thought
in the wakeful
hours of a new dawning.
Again strangers become.
TeAnne © Dec 27. 1997
FIRE WITHIN
You’ve ignited fires from within
for so long dormant embers laid
Fuel these flames of passion
with your gentle words and praise
Stroke these coals of burning life
let them lick and melt your heart
Hot and glowing around
you my heated arms enfold
Allow the stormy winds to scatter
the ashes of the past
Words gone before don’t matter
Tis now and forever
let this fervent fire last.
TeAnne. © Nov.13. 1997
First Kiss
The awkwardness of our first kiss
at arms length a quick peck
Eyes downcast in shyness and panic.
The innocence of our love with
thoughts of seeds growing
from lips upon lips.
A first love a childish crush
So real were the heart flutters
when arms first entwined
built with confidence
over time.
The growing anxiety of our
eleven year old minds when
we began to notice others
and knowing that heart break
was imminent
Then wandering eyes would
fall upon another and the
first innocent love would
be swept away forever.
But...
Never forgotten.
This is for you Michael, wherever you are.
© April 9. 1999
By TeAnne
© 1999 TeAnne (All rights reserved)
HAVEN
First Kiss
The awkwardness of our first kiss
at arms length a quick peck
Eyes downcast in shyness and panic.
The innocence of our love with
thoughts of seeds growing
from lips upon lips.
A first love a childish crush
So real were the heart flutters
when arms first entwined
built with confidence
over time.
The growing anxiety of our
eleven year old minds when
we began to notice others
and knowing that heart break
was imminent
Then wandering eyes would
fall upon another and the
first innocent love would
be swept away forever.
But...
Never forgotten.
This is for you Michael, wherever you are.
© April 9. 1999
By TeAnne
© 1999 TeAnne (All rights reserved)
HAVEN
In the sphere of darkness
When all is serene
My haven complete
Enter not this sanctum
I hold so precious
For I dream -----In black and white?
Nay 'tis true colour!
Images from the mind
Kaleidoscopic studies of yore
Deathlessness ne'er to pass
from this very moment
Movement through space
Serenity is mine!
For I dream -----In my haven complete TeAnne © 6 March.1999
HE CALLED ME
“VALENTINE”
You
said!……
“In
my mind
I
searched for one
And
All
I could find
Was
you!”…
Tonight........
You
called me
Your
only valentine.
So
tell me why do I….
Feel
so
Unloved…..
Lonely and blue.
TeAnne © 13th Feb.1999
I didn’t Mean To Forget You.
(Pantoum Style)
As gentle as a summer’s breeze
I felt the ghost of your touch
Whispered words reverberated.
Then your face loomed above me.
I felt the ghost of your touch
Like a fingerprint lifted off my heart.
Then your face loomed above me
I didn’t mean to forget you!
Like a fingerprint lifted off my heart
The moment was so fleeting
I didn’t mean to forget you!
You’ve re-appeared to remind me.
The moment was so fleeting
Now I know I’ll never forget
You’ve re-appeared to remind me
I do remember the life we shared
Now I know I’ll never forget
That moment in your arms and
I do remember the life we shared
You touched a special part in me.
That moment in your arms and
Whispered words reverberated.
You touched a special part in me
As gentle as a summer’s breeze.
TeAnne © June 12. 1999
I LIKE - I LOVE
I like
The sound of crashing ocean waves
the summer heat
the green of the grass
the mountains blue
The rain on the roof
And you.
Whispers in the dark
the coolness of an ocean breeze the wind in my hair
Ice on my face
And you
I love
The scent of a rose of red
the rhythm in a song
the purr of a cat
the power of love
the hues of trees in spring
And you
Walks on a sandy beach
the sun on my back
the moonlit nights
Stars so bright
And you.
TeAnne...April, 30. 1997©
In Dream State
© 1999 TeAnne (All rights reserved)
INVASION
I cannot alter the way I see
I cannot block you from me
I turn you are there
You seem so near
your eyes like neon signs
I see them as plain as day in a dream
You overtake my nights
I want you to release me
trespasser in my mind.
In A Writing Mood
HE CALLED ME
“VALENTINE”
You
said!……
“In
my mind
I
searched for one
And
All
I could find
Was
you!”…
Tonight........
You
called me
Your
only valentine.
So
tell me why do I….
Feel
so
Unloved…..
Lonely and blue.
TeAnne © 13th Feb.1999
I didn’t Mean To Forget You.
(Pantoum Style)
As gentle as a summer’s breeze
I felt the ghost of your touch
Whispered words reverberated.
Then your face loomed above me.
I felt the ghost of your touch
Like a fingerprint lifted off my heart.
Then your face loomed above me
I didn’t mean to forget you!
Like a fingerprint lifted off my heart
The moment was so fleeting
I didn’t mean to forget you!
You’ve re-appeared to remind me.
The moment was so fleeting
Now I know I’ll never forget
You’ve re-appeared to remind me
I do remember the life we shared
Now I know I’ll never forget
That moment in your arms and
I do remember the life we shared
You touched a special part in me.
That moment in your arms and
Whispered words reverberated.
You touched a special part in me
As gentle as a summer’s breeze.
TeAnne © June 12. 1999
The sound of crashing ocean waves
the summer heat
the green of the grass
the mountains blue
The rain on the roof
And you.
Whispers in the dark
the coolness of an ocean breeze the wind in my hair
Ice on my face
And you
I love
The scent of a rose of red
the rhythm in a song
the purr of a cat
the power of love
the hues of trees in spring
And you
Walks on a sandy beach
the sun on my back
the moonlit nights
Stars so bright
And you.
TeAnne...April, 30. 1997©
I Just Wanted To Touch You Babe.
I just wanted to touch you babe
Inspire in you, our love to save.
I was crazy and did not care
Used to hold my head, in the air.
When I saw you with another girl
It threw my head into a whirl
I just wanted to touch you babe
Inspire in you, our love to save.
She and I, looked into each’s eyes
I rolled my own, and gave a sigh
I could not believe you didn’t wait
Seems I became just your casual date
I just wanted to touch you babe
Inspire in you, our love to save.
You filled my head with promises to come
It seems I was not the only one
Escaped my prison from another’s arms
To be with you. And your animal charms
I just wanted to touch you babe
Inspire in you, our love to save.
TeAnne © Jan 24.1999
TALL ORDER
It was a tall order
falling in love with you.
I did it though, because
I thought it was right,
at the time.
It was a short stint
being in love with you.
I survived it though, because
thoughts and dreams
were mine.
It was a piece of cake
breaking up with you.
I carry on, because
I know it's right, and
to die inside would be
a waste of time.
TeAnne © Jan.22.1999
He said Her name.
He lives in her memory
when she is all, alone.
The tears stain the place
where, her head reclines.
His picture faces the wall
she speaks of him not.
Broke her in a single heartbeat
when in his sleep
he said her name!
They had been friends and lovers
with their 'Silver' celebrated.
She was like a well-worn Teddy
only accustomed to love and hugs.
She lingers day to day now
a newly single woman. For
the other one has her mate.
Tell tale signs confront
If only she had seen.
Working late, missing dinners.
His excuses, always vague.
Why oh why…
was she the last to know?
Then in his sleep
he said her name!
Jezebel…
May 22. 2000
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TeAnne © Jan 29.1998
I'm in a writing mood
yet lack a subject matter.
Just to be understood
maybe I'll write a letter.
It could contain "I miss you"
or "Please come back to me"
maybe words like "I love you"
they seem meaningless to me.It was over long ago
when we said good-bye.
The stars have lost their glow
up in that pitch black sky.
The moon was ours
you shared it with me
only now its very sour
when I look up to see.
To write a letter of love
I'd need to feel the passion
I'd need to be in love
but ours is out of fashion.
TeAnne © July 14. 1999
KISS
LIFE IN YOU
Unperfected world, dull with drab hues
But you paint I will, in colours of love.
My aim,
To caress with each brush stroke
Your bodily curves and concaves.
Colours bold and bright, rich and pure
Lights on your skin will ripple and glisten
as these strokes progress.
Each dot and dab lovingly brings you to life
A sculpture my priceless treasure.
TeAnne © Aug. 5 1997
little bird on my window sill
Of all my secrets, you do know
for on my face I wear a glow.
Each day to me you listen
of all desires I be wishin’
Understand, you do it well
only you, these things I tell.
Whisper to me little bird
what he said, what you heard
Did he say our love is real
as for me, the same he feels?
Did he say our love is strong
sing it to me, sing his song.
I know our secrets are safe with you
Alas, whistle and chirp, is all you do.
LOVES’ LOOK.
HER
© 2000 TeAnne (All rights reserved)
NIGHTMARE WEB
TeAnne © 16 July. 1999I was on the labour table
you were by my side
holding my hand with a smile
wide, upon your face.You bent and kissed my hand
you loved me so very much.
Then I gave a final thrust and
baby was placed in your arms.
You held him ever so gently
you kissed his furrowed head.
I saw much love in your eyes.
You mouthed "Thank you",
and kissed me tenderly.
To see you both together was a
fulfilment I will never forget,
and all the kisses in the future
could never outshine the one,
you gave me at his birth.
But you paint I will, in colours of love.
My aim,
To caress with each brush stroke
Your bodily curves and concaves.
Colours bold and bright, rich and pure
Lights on your skin will ripple and glisten
as these strokes progress.
Each dot and dab lovingly brings you to life
A sculpture my priceless treasure.
TeAnne © Aug. 5 1997
LITTLE BIRD
Call it what you willlittle bird on my window sill
Of all my secrets, you do know
for on my face I wear a glow.
Each day to me you listen
of all desires I be wishin’
Understand, you do it well
only you, these things I tell.
Whisper to me little bird
what he said, what you heard
Did he say our love is real
as for me, the same he feels?
Did he say our love is strong
sing it to me, sing his song.
I know our secrets are safe with you
Alas, whistle and chirp, is all you do.
TeAnne © Dec 28.1997
" Love Lamented "
TeAnne © Jan 31. 1998
Come tomorrow
I’ll remember you
in my dreams you will stay
filled with such sorrow
Will it always be this way
So soft is my pillow
it reminds me of your flesh
You bent my mind and body
like a willow
Was this all in jest
So long the wait
for our love to bloom
now our love abates
and lingers
in our darkened hearts of gloom
These feelings we shared
and thought would last
Are they becoming a faded
memory of a sad and distant past.
Ten Times Over
|
I remember the reasons we married.
We made our promises’ never to part,
We vowed to keep them… Till death!
We made our promises’ never to part,
We vowed to keep them… Till death!
We chose each, above all others.
We shared our lives and our love.
When did the magic go?… That fire!
We shared our lives and our love.
When did the magic go?… That fire!
I once saw sunshine in your eyes,
When ever you looked at me.
I had no reason for shade, when
I wanted to bask … Eternally!
When ever you looked at me.
I had no reason for shade, when
I wanted to bask … Eternally!
Those sunshine eyes turned to flames
and in them, blazed angry pyres.
You gave such burning glares… I charred!
and in them, blazed angry pyres.
You gave such burning glares… I charred!
Then you met another. You chose her,
over me. Your inferno gaze
backfired. Your prize, cremation.
You 're now reduced to… Ashes!
over me. Your inferno gaze
backfired. Your prize, cremation.
You 're now reduced to… Ashes!
I remember the reasons we married.
We made our promises’ never to part.
We vowed to keep them… Till death!
We made our promises’ never to part.
We vowed to keep them… Till death!
TeAnne. © 13 Sept. 1999
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Fingertips, you promised would thrill
leave me cold to the bone a chill
Our future, a fable it didn’t work
Promises, only lies. You’re such a JERK.
leave me cold to the bone a chill
Our future, a fable it didn’t work
Promises, only lies. You’re such a JERK.
A bully you are I succumbed
traveled from afar
To have you hold me and tell me lies
Now all our hopes and dreams have died.
traveled from afar
To have you hold me and tell me lies
Now all our hopes and dreams have died.
Escape this entanglement I must
to the safety my land, my home the ones I trust.
Where once again I’ll be at peace
dreaming alone dispelled and released.
to the safety my land, my home the ones I trust.
Where once again I’ll be at peace
dreaming alone dispelled and released.
TeAnne © Nov.4. 1997
OUR TIME
My summer breezes
and your winter chills
again,
an ocean apart.
With each of our pleasures
came penalties of pain.
Your voice on the line
distant
in my ears linger
Sleep haunted by your kiss
remembered.
Your laughter echoes
in days of loneliness
Our time together,
seemed a moment only
Why did it not
forever last.
TeAnne 1998
Power of Suggestion
RECITAL FOR INSANITY
Tell me it's all true
That you feel the same
Tingling in your heart
It isn't just a game.
We'll meet at midnight
When I am fast asleep
You will slip beside me
And in your arms I'll creep.
We'll be lovers of the universe
And soar the celestial skies
We will envelop the darkness
The only heaven, for you and I.
© April 10. 1999
Contemplated endings and significance of denials
for what is existence my central axis
without you life of recluse?
Falling for you again is madness
encore the song you wrote
Like your harmonica the toying of this heart
kissing the corners of my mind
delving deep searching my obscurity
My love has no beginning no end
no before no after
It just 'is' An empathy.
TeAnne 1998Reigning LoveTeAnne © Feb 23.1998
Once in a state of lone starhoused a prince of enchantmentthru' digital data he journeyedto a distance down underand a chance meetingwith a princess of discontentmentSo at length their souls touchedthe princess to his side he summonedher dragons he promised to slayand she to love till death do partand the people applauded their questNight to day journey longby land over the seas by airshe plungedThe princes' home his castleenter his realm of obedienceand battles loudfor the prince had duties acquiredand pleasure neglectAll she wanted was to "Stand with him on a mountain"Discord and displeasure abstruseso on judgment day she fled to her landbeckoningThough still discontented the princessand the seducer the princea day will come when love all do concurthey will equalizeand together reign.
REMINISCING I reminisce, the time in love we fell My dreams I dream, I dare not tell While too Your dreams, a mystery remain Your private life, delve, I must refrain You say "One day soon, we'll be as one" and talk of love and life to come But, in your night too dreaming , are you Of our future and moments we'll share? While I in my daylight hours wonder of ways to show you I need you And let you know, I love and care. I dare not ask these things of you "Do you love and need me too"? But you may ask these things of me Open and honest, you know I'll be And dare this question, do I ask For only you, the answer know "Is my love, all you want and need"? It was you, who in my heart and soul Became the tiller and sower of the seed. TeAnne.©..July 21. 1997 SENSORIAL This poem was written for a very special man, who in turn wrote one for me. You walk the meadows of my unconsciousnessweaving threads in dreamsYou, a tantalizing strangerfrom another time zoneanother shoreI can only reflectwith bated breathin time elapsedWhat excitement, sensation,stimulusnextYour face dominantminute by minuteYour energy,your willtugging meRepress aspirations,Why?A chance I don’t standThe undertow stronger than IYou winDeclare I domy love todayTeAnne...June 24. 1997©~*SENSORIAL 2*~
On this day, one short year ago, June twenty four I told you, I loved you, I wanted you more. Today, of that love ‘The anniversary’ and it aches to tell you it’s over.As I compose this last poem to you, I have your tear soaked dog eared picture by my side, I try to recapture those lost heart and soul feelings, of a love so giving, so honest, so sure and I curse, the day it died.Under my pillow, once your picture laid placed so carefully, as I slept and prayed. It helped me in our love feel secure and every time I looked at you my imagination and desires procured.Until we met!My heart was ripped from my chest and it felt like an army had marched over it. What is left of this passion so hot? It’s a shadow, a ghost in a mist, all that was, inside is crushed! Only the carcass remains.Where once the upliftment you gave filled my dreams and kept me excited, has gone, lost, unable to salvage.You are so special and I did love you so. But our imperfections, stepped affront and tore us in two. I do know, that a loyal friend is you and I wish you well, in all you choose. I hope and I pray we each find our happinessSome day!.
The poetry of TeAnne © 1993,1994,1997 & 1998 All Rights reserved.SIXTH ANNIVERSARY. Hold me in your dreams don't let me slip away One day, I may return Our special love reclaim. For now, only We must live and love apart Just a simple wish I have That we love each other like we did at the start. TEANNE © Dec 24. 1997SLAVES TO THE NIGHTSLAVES TO THE NIGHT The haunting music dead of night sleepy time visions as they drifted, limbs entwined Telling to each of what they saw, behind closed eyes * He became the wolf, so powered by hunger for the slight dingo so free! She flaunted her scent so wantonly * Over shifting deserts he trampled and seas his spirit soared he sensed so strong, She went that way! * Melodies guided him to wander the edge where he heard from well tuned ears his name she called carried by her summers' breeze * Battling natures hazards he looked to the moon and howled his delight The eclipse of their souls can be heard most nights. * TeAnne © Mar 31. 1998 (Re-write 13 Sept 1998)SPRING TIME Spring time again in my heart.
Skips a beat when you say "I LOVE YOU"
I dream of these three words
whispered in my ear as you hold me close
So lonely without you nearHeaven in your eyes I long to see
Your touch I long to feel
Is it all make believe
Can our love become reality
How can I express to you that I love you too.TeAnne...12 May. 1997 ©TAKE IT FOR GRANTED. It’s so cruel to see The pain in your eyes And upon your face. The way you struggle To take a few steps The time it takes. I just take a walk for granted. Your face has aged In the nine years We have been together And it breaks my heart To witness what you go thru’ But your life Is in your own hands For mine are tied There is nothing I can do. I wish for a magic wand To make you better. All I have to give is love Compassion and me! *For Daryl* TeAnne © Jan 24. 1999
Togetherness
I found in you the secret to happiness
your eyes hold truth,
love and tenderness
On your face are lines,
of compassion and kindness.
with your arms,
you wrap me up in completeness.
In your heart lays the house of forgiveness.
I found in you, a sense of
peacefulness
Your calming ways,
a relief to all stressfulness
In your hands, you hold my world with fondness
You will never be the master of assertiveness…
This knowledge guarantees a life of contentedness.
TeAnne © Jan 5.2000TEARS Adhere your lips to mine
and kiss away my doubts
Explore my inner purpose
embedded in my soul.And count the times I cry
Feel me tremble in your embrace
Taste the salt of my tears
as you gently kiss my face.My aches and stress
darling, soothe away.
To mine, your body press
and let me gather strength.Take this broken heart
gently, in cotton wool wrap.
Falling in love again is not easy,
when love is far away.TeAnne © April 20. 1997THEN WHAT?
What is this you do
am I a challenge
you set for yourself
Am I to bend to your advances of seduction
*
Will I become
just another notch in your ego
Win my heart and trust
then what ?
Cast me aside
used and abused
just like others before me
Is this my damnation
my lot in life?
*
For what is this fools fate
so tired of dreaming
a dream that will never be.
TeAnne © March 30. 1998UNMASKED Obstacles hitherto perplexing mountains steep, towering, daunting. Ahead wearisome on Each stride, step an effort sure footed not. On rocks and stones I stumble, I fall, I sob. Driving force worthiness prove, Headlong trudge journey on, Ascending the zenith threateningly distant, a labyrinth voyage pessimistic laden. Fractured thoughts deprive abating endurance, my existence hence. TeAnne.April, 28. 1997©UN-EASY LOVEOur love is like a tidal wave crashing, churning violent waves of uneasiness Stormy agitated, silence in our hearts. Like sand in my eyes are the tears I shed Words of love, walking on fractured crystals So alike, you and I. Capricorns, straying off course Innuendoes, out of character and strips torn, from precious memories Wind swept dunes once high with respect. Oh this night I dream of returning to the primrose path with serene waters and warm sun and our love maturing with no turmoil and aching hearts. TeAnne 11 May 1997©
Intruder
The sound of breaking glass
Heart threatening to deafen Silence!
Squeaking floor boards.
Moon captures steel
Bulging eyes!
Flesh weakening
Bodily functions.
Strangled scream!
TeAnne © March 7.2000
VOIDMy arms ache to hold you a need, to have you close Like a plant without water I, too do shrivel and die When I walk the desert sands You become my oasis When I feel the fires of hell you are my ladder to heaven’s peace When I swim the oceans vast You are my sprawling shores When I climb the rugged mountains of life You’re a-top, me to greet And when we go our separate ways the void, this gulf, too deep. TeAnne © Nov.13.1997WAKE UP IN WONDER You were once my protector And mediator of my sanity Last night you fell into my dream And I awoke in sweaty wonder. For this night you must have heard me You heard my saddened wails This was not supposed to happen To have a dream of you is immoral! You were once my loving husband We share a Son and that is all So why were you in my arms And me in yours, holding strong? We danced and frolicked in the rain Then, inside we strolled so happily We made love, yet again. As we used too. Before our lives together fell apart. I don’t know why you came back It has been over for nine years Is your spirit soaring across the plane To ease these, my painful years? Were you my true soul mate after all? TeAnne © 18 Feb. 1999
THE WATER’S EDGE
We Did It. © TeAnne Feb 18.1998 We did it at homewe even did it alonewe did it in the showereven at odd hourswe did it in a parked carwe did it under the moon and starseven in restaurants and barswe did it in the street and parkseven after darkwe did it in front of otherseven to each otherwe did itwe kissed.WHAT IS LOVE?
A common word for it is loveWhat is it really?How much do you giveand what amount of taking is enough?The intensity now dulled,a passion once hot forever cold!Thoughts diminished and replaced by nothingness.Am I dead?Inside, no emotions no pain, no tears.© June 5. 1998 TeAnne
NOT TWENTY ANYMORE
Father Time rang the doorbell of her mind he whispered words that she had keyed away 'What have you done with your life girl'? Mother Nature mirrored back her image... Showing mountains and valleys blocked from view. 'You haven’t weathered the storms very well, have you'? The weary mother of five sighed heavily. Beatings from a drunken husband, recorded a broken nose and twisted limbs, arthritis filled. How had she coped? Tears glistened she had earned the right for ‘self pity’ She rebuked Father Time and Mother Nature How much more to endue before they set her free? TeAnne © Feb 28.2000
